in a world of backshots i want Missionary
so i tried casual sex and can confirm I HATED it.
I'M A LOVER GIRL……SUE ME.
it's a random monday and i find myself hooking up with a friend who's now an acquaintance (technically was always an acquaintance but a decent dude nonetheless) and really having an out of body experience.
it's the first time i'm doing anything remotely intimate since breaking up with my ex almost 2 years ago (a relationship that was sexless near its end so ya girl was reallllyyy out the game) and when the sex was done all i could think was…
this is IT??
this is what all the no strings attached friends with benefits HOOPLA is about?!
WHERE'S THE LOVE???
WHERE'S THE FLAVOUR?!?
the sex was by no means bad but sex with someone who i’m not going to pursue knowing on a deeper level is just.. dick? (or whatever genitalia you're bumping against)
and really, dick is dick is dick when there's no love to tie the dick to you know???
in a world of backshots and barely-acquaintances-with-benefits i want missionary damnit!!!
I want eye contact,
I want a warm embrace,
I want sweet moments shared between loving souls, don’t you?
i mean is it just me or…
are we in a time in space where majority of people are looking to compartmentalize and separate the act of sex from the physical body and souls partaking in the act with them?
are the lovers outnumbered by those in search of a bumping-uglies-only partner?
is this a gen z thing?!? (genuinely asking as a confused Zillenial)
OR, have i just been operating inside a vacuum and it is and HAS BEEN this way for a while?
literally me cause it is entirely possible that i’ve been living under a rock
look, before this hookup i did want casual sex (or at least i thought i did) but the minute i got home could not get in that bath FASTER.
i did a SPIRITUAL CLEANSE (i'm talking RECKITT'S Crown Blue Squares, sea salt and some limes if you know you KNOW) because i could feel the energy of not only the dude but literally every other soul that he was inside I’m not even being dramatic lol!!!
while i know how to return energy back to sender and ground myself, a lot of people don't. And then it's no wonder the cycle continues (it's like that movie IT FOLLOWS except what gets passed on is a shallow apathetic outlook on love and a sole desire to buss a nut lolol)
and that apathy doesn't just disappear once it's caught, it gets marketed right back to us. people would much rather swipe on someone with a bio that says “i like to travel and have hot sex" than to undergo the pursuit of deep love whether romantically OR platonically!!!
like bro when did we become such pussies?!?
it's like we all want love and yet casual sex is everyone's go-to simply because it's the EASIER, less messy route (for which i would die on the hill that it's actually messy AF).
why don't we want to care more about the people we're sharing bodily fluids with i don't understand?!?
if you were truly a FRIEND with the benefits of sexual intimacy then wouldn't it just be a relationship? (or are even the friendships these days becoming shallow and distanced too?)
humanity is suffering from a lack of deep connection and love and only we can save it
so if you're reading this, go do some missionary, go ask the girl that you have a crush on out on a proper date, share a vulnerable story with a friend and let's save the world damnit!
